How I Got To The Hot Seat

I want to tell you the story about how I got into the hot seat this past March. I’ve been really into telling stories lately. In fact, I’m sorta camped out there right now. Which can only mean, this (storytelling) must be a big deal for me.

Making it up ‘Good’

One reason I tell stories, is to help myself feel better about a situation. Many years ago, in my Fearless Living training to become a coach, I heard from mentors and the creator of the program to “make it up good!”

Rhonda uses humor in a beautiful way, that helps me open my heart when I’m doing something I’ve presumed would be hard… like lookin’ at your personal shizzle and ironing some of the kinks out so you feel better. So you feeeel like makin’ love (really, this isn’t a post about sex, and neither was my question for Abe even though it might first appear that way).

Instead of planning for the worse case, which is what we’ve sorta been taught our whole lives to do; what to look out for and how to stay safe, she’d say, “If you are gonna make stuff up, might as well make it up good!”

So before I got to the chair, I told myself a very vivid story. I know the power of my imagination and I had specifically avoided telling myself a detailed story of a visit with Abraham because I wanted to really feel I was ready. Usually, I just glossed over it. Knowing that one day, I would go. But most days wasn’t going to be that day. Even days I attended a workshop wouldn’t be my day. Interestingly enough, it was the person-sitting-beside-me’s turn, which I talk about here.

The night before the workshop, I lay in bed, doing my usual nightly ritual (hopefully not so completely exhausted that I remember to do my nightly ritual). I’ve been using the mediation CD day & night, very consistently, since January. I sometimes listen to a few YouTube videos before bed instead. Anyway, my nightly ritual goes something like this:

An evening ritual of Making It Up ‘Good’

  • get a little high on Abe, somehow/someway (mediation CD/YouTube video)
  • think about how delicious my bed feels, when I first get in it and thank the living shit out of that, thank the universe that I know exactly what good feels like, it feels like this moment right now, when I first climb into bed.
  • Next, I’ll intend to have the most amazing sleep ever.
  • I’ll intend to wake feeling refreshed, rejuvenated and totally f’n crazy-excited about my day, what/who/how… all of it blessed, now!
  • I’ll intend that I’ll immediately remember, even before rising from bed tomorrow morning, that when I open my eyes, to return to this feeling right now. To recapture this wave and begin from here.
  • Here is the place, where if you know of specific events that will be happening in your life, you can intend for their successful conclusions based on the good of all concerned or just fall asleep (if you haven’t already, lol) …
  • For me, I decided to do segment intending or pre-pave my trip to the chair tomorrow by going there now. And so I did and I ended up chatting with Abraham.

Yes, I did say chatting with Abraham

And I did. And I noted that Abraham wasn’t quite as funny without Esther there. Still very funny though. And I had this complete visualization of coming up to the chair, and feeling relaxed and comfortable. And that we would laugh and have fun. And it would be as easy as this chat right now is. And it was satisfying. And tomorrow would be satisfying also. And I reflected a moment on how I would feel… overjoyed that I showed myself my own power of intention by getting to the chair. And I remember seeing my friend’s face as I sat down beside her after visiting with Abraham in the visualization.

There was amazing power I felt that was imbued into this story I was telling because I chose to add something simple and easy for myself to visualize, like the familiarity of a friend’s face… anything easy is really good ju-ju. We can throw ourselves out of the vortex very quickly with going too detailed so this is practice! I picture the hummingbird, how she flows easily, effortlessly and with intention over and around the themes in my “make it up good” stories. Down deep into detail and them hovering above, in just the simple feel goodedness of the being the storyteller and making this my creation!)

And then I opened my eyes. I smiled. And I thought, I was just joking around with Abraham about getting my ass in that chair tomorrow. That was fun. Easy. I further intended, I’m going to stay relaxed about it all. Tomorrow I will know what other processes to use to support myself (and I did and it was easy, really it became easier as I let go and trusted this had already happened because technically, it just had!)

What was not easy (surprisingly) was being in the chair.

For now, check out this conversation with Abraham to understand more why I’m writing about this now even though the general topic of “the chair” has been on my list since March <sheepish grin>.

Till soon,




My New Addiction

For the second half of 40 days, I’m shifting gears a little bit. It’s time to introduce what I know I’d like to be doing more of everyday, to support me with the new habit I’m creating for myself. The habit of being addicted to my connection to Source energy, or as Abraham refers to it, the vortex. A vibrational place where everything I’ve ever asked for (not just in this life time) and everything I continue to ask for, awaits for me to align with it.

For the initial segment of 40 days, what I was really going for, was to support myself in feeling the connection to Source. Often. In fact, I can’t remember when I began listening to Esther on YouTube every single morning for 15 minutes, but that was a part of how I started connecting to the knowledge, information, energy, passion… whatever you want to call it… Source energy.

And I told you my particular version of this story about Source energy… starting with what alignment is (being an appreciator), how to appreciate without attaching, playing the game, and that is all leads back to me. Which is to say, knowing who I am, and being deliberate with that knowledge. “Molding the energy that creates worlds.”

And ultimately, I am realizing that learning to appreciate myself, the way that I am appreciated (by a lover, a friend, a parent or my child, and of course the Big One, that which created it all) is of utmost importance. My new addiction.

So, get your journal out. Hopefully, something you love. Because over the last segment of 40 days I’m opening my journal after a video or my morning meditation and I’m going to be practicing building lists.

I’m going back to basics. Some of it familiar, some a bit new. Lists I learned to build back in the beginning. When I took the risk to invest in myself, follow a fearless path, and hire my first life coach.

So some of this will not be new to you. But I expect there to be a few surprises along the way as we incorporate the many invitations we’ve received from Abraham. About how to become an appreciator. About using ease (or the path of least resistance) as our primary emotional escort into the vortex. Using our attention or focus as a resource of empowerment. And learning again, how to be an appreciator of all that is.

I hope you’re out there and along for the ride. It’s really important work we’re all doing, learning how to do this. Waking up to ourselves. And by our example, supporting one another on the path.

Abraham says hope is at the edge of your vortex. Today, get your journal out. And go to hope. Write down a few things you hope for yourself and 2011. What you hope for your physical wellness, what you hope for your financial abundance, what you hope for your most important relationships. It doesn’t have to be a thorough list, avoid making this hard for yourself. Just be easy about it and write them down. These hopes of yours, are the beginning of a new story.

And as we begin practicing being appreciators in the last major segment of 40 days, I’m knowing and eagerly anticipating yours, and my own delight, as the things we hope for begin flowing into our experience, and right before our eyes we realize who we are. Powerful deliberate radiating sources of liquid love.


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